today was horrendous.
it was a pissed & sorry day.
open house was really bad
i couldn't even play a song once without making any mistakes
and when everyone was playing pirates so happily, i just had to screw it up at that part.
i'm really very sorry.
i'm really very sorry that i just can't play the songs properly.

saxes, jingwen: sorry i didn't play the tenor properly and practically screw up all the songs.

esther: thank you for always going to the water cooler there and hear me rant.

grace & regina new: thanks for giving me the transparent gummy bears.

li jie: thanks for switching on the vibrating fan and doing all the silly actions.

i'll alight at your heart
11:59 PM

day 1, i can't wait for the last day to come.
yesterday, was indeed the last day that i've been waiting for.
okay, it was happy and relieved. but it was saddening.

I MISS TIFFANY'S COFFEE HOUSE & RESTAURANT <3
I MISS THE SMELLY LOCKER ROOM
I MISS THE VERY SLIPPERY KITCHEN
I MISS THE STAFF CANTEEN WHICH SERVES WEIRD DRINKS
I MISS THE VERY NARROW OFFICE WITH THE UGLY LOOKING 'DOOR'
I MISS STATION 1 AND STATION 2
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY,
I MISS THE PEOPLE THERE.
I MISS:
PAULINE (who keeps calling us babies and asking us to teach her mandarin and say i've to teach her mandarin before i leave)
TOH(BERNARD) (who always allowed us to go to the locker room to slack and allowed us to leave before 5)
ALICE (who keeps calling us xiao mei)
ADAM ( who was going heh heh and smiling till the eyes were like one line when i came out from the kitchen to set the tables without spoons and only finding out that he had already put in the spoons already)
TAUFIK ( who was the only nice one when the rest were nasty on wednesday and was super nice to help me clean the station when he's only suppose to teach how to clean and let me clean the 'couch' and was like super random when he said "woah don't angry lah" when the spoon accidently slipped off when i was cleaning up the table)
BEN TAN ( who was also known as SexP and kept picking on cassandra every meeting/briefing and asked us to wait 10 mins before taking the feedback form from him cause he wants to finish eating his nasi goreng and "impressed" us with us very "power" english and "nice" handwriting)
DESMOND ( who had to keep finding things for us to do on the 4th day cause SexP didn't want us to slack and kept saying "ke yi mah?xiao xin ah" when he sees me taking whole loads of plates and bowls to the kitchen )
SHIRLEY ( who was super nice to us since we known her and laughed along with us when we were commenting on ben's ever so nice handwriting and ever so power spelling and pitied us for the cheap $50 we are getting for pay)
BUTTER KNIFE GUY ( who i didn't really get to talk to until the moment when we were about to leave and he was in the lift doing room service)
JIMMY ( who see that i was short and said "aiyo too short ah" and then helped me put the cups in the rack rack that was really quite high )
THE INDIAN GUY WHO'S VERY INTERESTED IN OUR NAMES (who kept asking me if my name is jess or ling and still kept calling me jess after i told him its jess ling )
ARAS ( who was supposedly quite fierce looking and turned out to be quite nice )
THE CHEF WHO CALLED US CHILDREN ( who only talked to us on our last day and kept telling our people "eh let them take first lah,ladies first, eh no, they children, let them take first lah" and then turned to us and say" yah, you all not ladies right, still children" )
THE MALAY CHEF THAT LOOKED LIKE INDIAN ( asked me how long we're going to be there and was like "ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~" when i told him it was 5 days and he looks rather cute like bear bear )
STEPHANIE ( who is quite pms but very hyper when she's happy and kept singing)
NANCY ( who is shorter than me and pauline kept using the chinese i taught her to talk to nancy and pauline calls her nancy goreng)
MALAY MANAGER ( who looks quite intimidating but was quite cute when he tells us bout polishing apples and carrying)
MELIND ( who is really scary because of her thick thick make up)
MARY ( who kept asking me to help her set up the tables in the cafe and tell me the philosophies in life and kept chit chatting with me when i'm wiping the utensils in the lounge and will give this very motherly smile when she sees us)
OCTOPUS ( who is really nast and irritating and has this very weird looking specs)
THE DISHWASHERS ( who was really shock to know that we understand mandarin)

I MISS ALL OF THEM,
I MISS TIFFANY'S COFFEE HOUSE & RESTAURANT
<3

weird but true, the guys were actually much much nicer than the girls and we can't figure out why.

"IN THE F&B INDUSTRY, IT IS A SMALL WORLD" - Ben Tan

now, i appreciate all service, all ice water.
" excuse me Ma'am / sir, may i clear the plates "
" here's your pepper/ salt/ soy sauce/ ice water Sir/ Ma'am "

beverage of the month: cranberry juice
greeting, eye contact, smile

THANK YOU SIR/ MA'AM!
SEE YOU AGAIN!
HAVE A NICE DAY / EVENING!

i'll alight at your heart
4:43 PM

Saxes: hey friends, though we've been totured very badly these few practices and yeah, some unpleasent things, but darlings! we cannot be affected by what She says! We must stay strong together as a section and individually! We must show that we will not be disheartened and lose passion and just give up because of what She says. We must and i'm sure that WE WILL SHOW HER THAT WE, THE SEXY SAXES, THE STRONGEST SAXOPHONE SECTION IS BACK ON OUR FEET AND WE WILL BE AT OUR BEST WITH OUR FIGHTING SPIRIT AT THE MAX!
LET'S WORK HARD TOGETHER OKAY FRIENDS! <3

Jessie: hey friend! Let's work hard together! don't be bothered by what She says! Bari is cool too! like the curve is soooo hot! : D don't take what She says seriously okay! Let's all work hard together to prove her wrong! <3

Zhu Er: hey friend! now you're the oldest in second alto! Don't cry so easily and you must stay strong too okay! You can do it! <3

Rui Jun: hey friend! don't panic and be afraid with the fact that you're the only one in first alto! you know you can play and we all know you can play! don't behave like a bimbo anymore and stay strong! <3

Let's all work hard together! <3

i'll alight at your heart
11:29 AM

SCRAM

i'll alight at your heart
8:41 PM

tomorrow is the day.

the day that i have been dreading
the day that i have been waiting for it to be over
the day that i break down
the day that i give up
the day that all that i've practise comes to the real test
the day that all bubbles might be burst
the day that all mental and physical strength will be tested
the day that all questions will be given an answer

the day is tomorrow
the day is approaching in less than 24 hours

please pray for me friends

i'll alight at your heart
8:54 PM

' I was born to tell you I love you '

it reminds me of the good times we had during camp.

i'll alight at your heart
8:51 PM

i know that i suck but i'd rather you kick me out than to torture me like this.
what do you want me to do when no matter how hard i try i can never be up to your standard?
you've been baring grudges since that very day and now is your chance for you to vent it all on us.
yes, i'm black sheep in this whole good lot.
if one day i give up, is because i had enough of you, had enough of all your remarks, had enough of your scolding.
i tried to be strong, i tried to stay strong and i'm still trying.
but i don't know when i'll just fall into pieces.
thoughts of giving up have appeared constantly and i'm trying my very best to ignore it.
i'm holding on but one day if your blades are too strong, it'll just cut the rope i'm holding on and that's the end of story.
i don't want that to happen but there's nothing i can do.
if practising everyday still can't get your simple nod,
i'm really lost,
i really don't know what else to do.
i might be my unlucky day that day.
but i doubt so.
i know i really suck and thanks for assuring.
you hate me, i used to respect you and i hope i still do.
i starting to hate you.
fine.
i 'm like blaming you.
okay.

this is to the very world.

i am the worst in the whole lot.
i am the shameful one.
i am the lousy one.
i am the black sheep in the whole good lot.

i hate myself

i'll alight at your heart
1:45 PM