tomorrow is the day.
i'm so scared and worried.

please lord,mkae sure that everything will go smoothly and perfectly for my grandmother's operation.
please.

i'll be praying hard and i'll rush over to your side the moment i can.

pleease let everything so smoothly and perfectly with littie pain.

let all the pain she's gone through for gone once and for all and let her enjoy the freedom of travelling around and walking around.

dear lord, please be there for her throughout the whole operation and recovery.

i'll be there for you too,ah ma.

<3

i'll alight at your heart
7:05 PM

im getting really emo these days.
and some people just seems so irratating that i want to slap them and flush their face in the toilet bowl.
school's has been really bad in a sense and there's elec geog test tmr, a math test on wed and chem test on friday.
and some dumbass lousy motorcycle is so freakin noisy.and the crows at the trees are so freaking noisy too. and people are being angry for no reason. just **** off man!
elec geog test tmr and i haven been studying.i've just been copying down notes very diligently and now when i have to prepare for the damn test, it seems like there's a lot of things to study but also seems like there's nothing to study. urgh.
and i wasted my time today baking cornflake cookies today and scalded my finger on the right hand and now there's a blister that's growing and its so freakin pain that i can't type properly.
i have to study but i don't wana study.
urgh,and now there's this damn lorry that keep screaching.

i'm pissed.
>:(

very pissed.
>>:(

i hate tests.( who like them right?)

>>:((

i'll alight at your heart
7:32 PM

One for All , All for One.

most of us were so innocent and relaxed then.
most of us are so treacherous and stressed now.
"Change is the nature of the universe"
"Things do not change; we change."
things remain the same way as they are and they willl always do.
but
we did not remain the same way as we were and
we changed. :(

one for all , all for one.
one for all , all for one (?!)

i'll alight at your heart
10:39 PM

everything was okay today until i was on the way home.

my grandma is sick and medicine doesn't helps.

why at this point of time?

she's sick now and i can't even do anything to help.

and worst of all,

she's going for an operation on tuesday and i can't even be there because of band.
but i really want to be there for her.

even if i go for band, i can't fully concentrate.

but SYF is coming and i can't afford to a miss any practice.

band or my grandmother.

my heart says my grandmother.
my brain says band.

i want to follow my heart but just can't do so.

this sucks.

this is the worst situation things can ever get.

i really want to be with my grandmother on tuesday.

her operation will start around 3 plus and band starts at 3 plus.

it really sucks.

my heart or my brain?

this sucks.

i'll alight at your heart
8:32 PM

this is shit.

shit.

new monster added.

Monster T. preferbly known as the devil who wears BATA.

just finished lit homework and haven't study chinese ting xie which is TOMORROW too.

this sucks.

i hope TYM is sick again tmr.

bleah.

>.<

"Waking up is the riskiest moment of the day." - Franz Kafka, "The Trail"

i'll alight at your heart
9:37 PM

love this day! :D
went for family lunch
den went shopping for new year's clothes
and now i'm shopping online.

I SERIOUSLY NEED A POSB CARD.

i saw SOOOOOOOO many things i wanna buy but

I HAVE NO POSB CARD.

this is irratating.
>.<

but overall,i'm still happy.kindda.

(>.<) + (^.^) = (-.-)

i'll alight at your heart
9:28 PM

this is crazy.
everyone is either emo or sad.
that's bad. Very bad.
people are crying frequently.
its bad.
seeing them cry is sad.
i'm sad to see them sad.
some choose to express themselves by crying.
some choose to keep it to themselves.
crying seems to be the better solution.
but sorting them out will definatly be the better solution.

its sad to see relations to be on the verge of falling out.
to lose a relation because of a small matter is crazy.
are the joys and secrets shared becoming a history?
better don't.

it's freaking sad.

don't let things become history.
recouncil is the best way.
relations will be stronger after you face problems and solve them Together.
the sharpening will be pain but to be a good pencil, the pencil has to go through it.
so does the relations.

and somehow, these quotes just fits the situation.

Change is the nature of the universe. - I Ching, "The Book of Change"

Things do not change; we change. - Henry David Thoreau

Most of the change we think we see in life is due to truths being in and out of favour. - Robert Frost

It's sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew - Henry Rollins

A true friend stabs you in the front - Oscar Wilde

Sometimes to realize you were well, someone must come along and hurt you. - Perry Farrell

Depression is like a constipated rhino sitting on your chest. - Rob Anderson, "The Black Book"

Depression is a disorder of mood, so mysteriously painful and elusive in the way it becomes known to the self-to the mediating intellect-as to verge close to being beyond description. It thus remains nearly incomprehensible to those who have not experienced it in its extreme mode. - William Styron, "Darkness Visible"

If someone betrays you once it is their fault, if someone betrays you twice it is your fault. - Elenor Roosevelt

The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn. - David Russell

I love those who can smile in trouble, who can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. 'Tis the business of little minds to shrink, but they whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves their conduct, will pursue their principles unto death. - Thomas Paine


it's not that anything is bothering me.
but after seeing somethings that happen recently.
i just have these thoughts.

i'll alight at your heart
9:01 PM

hi! i realised i haven't been replying tags for a long time.like quite bad ah.
so here's my reply!
from the older tags to the more recent ones.

Ayu: ya. i hope josie stays too. Monster S is just horrible.

jingwen: ya! let's overcome Monster S together as a section! yay! JIAYOU!

cassandralai: ya.jocelyn quitted.den now,josie might be quitting.hope its not curse man.haha.but its all because Monster S. she sucks la.

panshin: yo!

regina: okay!

bev: HELLO!

i'll alight at your heart
7:02 PM

today was okay.
but more towards the bad.
HOWEVER
i shall be positive.
monster S went mad again.
she looked at me and say:" you from outer space ah?!"

like hello? what's wrong with being outer space? isn't it fun?
HI! I'M FROM OUTER SPACE, PLANET PLUTO but because my planet as taken out from the solar system so i'm on earth. hahaha.

monster S also said:" if i had a gun i really want to shoot u!"

shoot shoot lor.wait till u have a gun.and if u have a gun,u will be in trouble. don't take the risk monster S. if u really wan to shoot me, i have water gun. u want? hahaha.

Monster S is crazy. haha.
and is just remembered that Monster S can be understood as Monster Siao too!haha.

and Monster S, u are really crazy. how can you scold people just like that?!
don't you know that they want to leave because of you?
MONSTER.

that's all for today.

and there are a total of 3 monsters in my life now.
Monster L
Monster S
Monster I

DON'T GO NEAR THE MONSTERS.
THEY KILL WITHOUT HESITATION.

i'll alight at your heart
9:12 PM

yo babe!
haha i love the phrase.

stayed back today and it was damn fun.haha.
went macs with carina and cassandra after that and talk crap.haha.

tomorrow is tuesday.
i'm going to see two monsters tomorrow.TWO HORRIBLE HUMAN EATING MONSTERS.
there's P.E tomorrow and there's S.L.(!) and i'm going to take height and weight tommorow(but like i care about my weight.i'm prund to be fat :D )
there's band tomorrow and there's SSS(!),she'll probably scream her head of at every single thing.unless the sec ones can keep her busy.UNLESS.

and i've got lots of things to clear.
okay not a lot.
but a little that requires a lot of effoet and work. :(
there's:
-all the questions in Z for Zachariah DUE WEDNESDAY.
-math mensuration test ON WEDNESDAY
-physics worksheets DUE FRIDAY

i can't wait for tomorrow's pe to be over.

I AM DYING FOR IT TO BE OVER.
DYING.

its like around 12 hours more to the horrible pe to be over.

before pe - DIED
after pe - REJOICE!!!!!!!! :D

12 more hrs.

hang in there man.

i can do it.HAHA.

this is self motivation.haha.

got to go guys.
to either study for maths or do the Z for Za...... thing.
or maybe i'll just slack and go to sleep so tomorrow would come and pe would pass faster.
good luck to me man.

haha.

i'll alight at your heart
7:47 PM